We Surpass Ourselves With Time

Shirt- Brandy Melville, Sweater- Velvet, Pants- Luna B, Boots- ShoeMint

I started playing soccer at an older age than most of the kids in my neighborhood. The girls on my first team had played for many years; I was one of two girls who had never played soccer on the team. As a result, I played the minimum (AYSO requires each member to play at least 2 quarters). When I was on the field, I was terrified of making mistakes. I never wanted the ball passed to me, just in case I would mess up.

I got good very quickly. I never got very good technically, but I ran and defended with pure drive and motivation. I still never wanted the ball. Throughout my soccer career, even when I got on Varsity, I never wanted the ball because of the fear that was ingrained into my head as soon as I had touched the sport.

I quit after one year on Varsity (I played for a total of 5 years) because I hated the feeling of inadequacy. Of teammates putting me down and me believing them. What I could have achieved with more support, I don't know. I will never know. At least, not for soccer.

But I'm here with vengeance and confidence that I have never had before. And I won't let any of you bring me down this time.

Trying To Steal All My Mom's Platforms

Blouse- F21, Skirt- Thrifted, Platform Boots- Stolen from Mom

I carry my notebook and pen wherever I go, just in case inspiration strikes me. So I really have no excuse not to write when I am inspired; pen and paper are always at hard. But I've realized that I do not enjoy writing down my thoughts when I am truly inspired. I find that the act of writing it down is work; work that prevents me from enjoying that fleeting moment of inspiration.

The difference I find between being inspired by fashion and all other inspiration is that fashion sticks in my head. My mind carefully wraps up the image and puts it into a treasure box that only I have the key to. I can sort through the more recent pictures with ease. It is a kind of permanent, as if it were written with pen and paper.

Of course, when I find something inspiring like my mom's platform boots, it's so much easier to put them on and take a picture than write about them in words.

POST V-DAY

Dress- Brandy Melville, Sweater- F21, Shoes- ShoeMint

Yeee three day weekend! Hope y'all had a great Valentine's. As for me, I'm just happy to be back in black. And for the beautiful and warm weather so I can romp around in a dress instead of shivering like I normally am.

EARLY V-DAY

Sweater and Shawl- Brandy Melville, Necklace- Tobi, Shorts- F21

Celebrated 13 months of togetherness with my man by eating crepes for lunch (and for dinner, lol. so yummy!). Valentine's Day is coming up so I felt like dressing up with more colors than usual. I promise the monochrome, only dark colors Youri will be back in a few days.

LINK THE CHAINS TOGETHER

Dress- Thrifted, Skirt (peeking out)- Cotton On, Shoes- H&M

How's life going for me? Slow. Making bracelets when I have the time to start an etsy shop and sneaking in pictures between studying and gloomy skies (iono how to get the gloom out of the pictures without it looking too happy).

STOP THE WORLD FROM SPINNING

Sweater, Jacket- Wilfred via Aritzia, Shorts- ANGL, Bracelet- DIY

I’ve been really into making my own ring attached bracelets. I know there’s a lot of them on etsy, but I really like the idea of customizing my own jewelry since it’s one of a kind.

Everyone around me is sick with the flu! I’ve fortunately been able to avoid it, but instead have been dealing with vertigo. The cure? Wait til it goes away..

Until then, my world will keep on spinning.

DIY: Slave Bracelet

Instead of catching up on Math hw, I decided to spend an hour or so making myself a slave bracelet. I considered buying one off etsy for like $20 but instead, I spent around $15 on pliers/metal cutters at Target and got a vintage multi-chained necklace for $2 at a thrift store in Oakland. I can definitely make at least 3 more bracelets out of the material I have left; if I decide not to make more for myself, I guess I could give them as gifts to some of my friends, or I could get my money back and sell them..

 

HELP ME, I'M NO GOOD AT GOODBYES

Dress-RVCA via Crossroads, Flannel-F21, Boots-ShoeMint, Necklace-JewelMint via Threadflip

Still waiting on that new camera. Saving up money when you only work about 10 hours a week is pretty brutal. Going Karaoke'ing tonight with some friends to give myself a pat on the back for my first full week of school this semester. Unfortunately my throat is sore (the flu is going around Berkeley now) and I won't be able to sing my heart out, but it will be fun nonetheless. Much better than sitting at home playing Outwitters on my phone.